there's so much routine in a school day. you say words you wish you didn't say, you don't have the words for what you wish you could say, your mind spins around and around and you don't really know who you are or who you want to be, why you're here and what on earth you're supposed to open your eyes and see.
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when things don't turn out the way you wanted them, or it turns out you didn't know and you just sort of wonder what life really is, how God is real but you just know that He is, and you have to believe it with everything you are but you need to shake yourself awake and lift your head out of the sand and seek to find Him, really find Him, because you have to know truth, you can't just keep on by, mumbling words and trying to translate your heart to understandable language that you can understand.
maybe it's just time to cry and cry for awhile, to write a book, to record all your dreams and ponder everything that seems so distant from reality, but you know there's always a possibility of hope, of goodness, and nothing good is impossible. because you know, God didn't just plomp us here because he ran out of space in some other place. no, mate, there is a reason i'm here and your here and actually, it's not about finding that reason, but living, living, seeking God and...
you know what? when our heart begins to smile, when all the panic and stress and unsurity disappears? it's when we lose our fear about what people think about us. when you decide to trust God with Prince Charming and with your friends and your family, you stop worrying about what you said and will say.
because this is life right here, and to be honest, just typing all these words makes me feel better. i don't have any idea of the music that i'm listening to, i don't know much of anything.
and you know what, that's a pretty damn good thing. we don't have to worry because we've just got no idea! we can open our eyes in the morning, stare at at that beautiful morning that God has given us and exahale in the air and believe in hope. believe that there is so much hope. because oh, mate, there is!
psalm a hundred and nineteen,
i am a stanger on this earth.
but oh we are not alone. we are strangers. we must hear stories, play music, do what we love. and most importantly, we must love and be loved, by God. and then mate, there's no worries. have you heard i can only imagine, by mercyme?
in Jesus' name