I did. And then I read this.
"A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
It got me thinking. Why am I so afraid? It's like Jesus looks at me, and he's just like, "Emii, how come you're so scared? Don't you believe in me?"
I have faith. I do. So why do I let this world get to me? Where's my faith gone?
Nowhere. I think it's more like my trust was goin' down. Down down down... and I just can't believe, my first love won't be around and it's like...
Sorry. Got a bit distracted there, hey? Hehe, first person to guess the song wins!
Anyway. Where was I? Trust. Fact is, Jesus is with me. Jesus loves me. He's holding my hand, and even when I'm feeling empty and unneeded... He needs me. He does.
Instead of just moping around... pray. "Pray when you feel like praying. Pray when you don't feel like praying. Pray until you do feel like praying." -- Robin Jones Gunn. Talk to Jesus.
There's so much more I want to say. (Er, write.) But we did community service today, and I'm exhausted. Pulling out big weeds for four hours is hard work! :) It's all good, though. It's a good feeling, doing things for other people.