6.5.11

where's your faith?

You feel sad. Lonely. Unwanted. Depressed. Stupid. Idiotic. Useless. Hopeless. Unloved. 
I did. And then I read this.


"A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped.  Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

It got me thinking. Why am I so afraid? It's like Jesus looks at me, and he's just like, "Emii, how come you're so scared? Don't you believe in me?"

I have faith. I do. So why do I let this world get to me? Where's my faith gone? 

Nowhere. I think it's more like my trust was goin' down. Down down down... and I just can't believe, my first love won't be around and it's like...

Sorry. Got a bit distracted there, hey? Hehe, first person to guess the song wins!

Anyway. Where was I? Trust. Fact is, Jesus is with me. Jesus loves me. He's holding my hand, and even when I'm feeling empty and unneeded... He needs me. He does. 

Instead of just moping around... pray. "Pray when you feel like praying. Pray when you don't feel like praying. Pray until you do feel like praying." -- Robin Jones Gunn. Talk to Jesus. 

There's so much more I want to say. (Er, write.) But we did community service today, and I'm exhausted. Pulling out big weeds for four hours is hard work! :) It's all good, though. It's a good feeling, doing things for other people.

9 comments:

  1. I totally get what you are saying!! Sometimes my faith is just hanging on by a thread....but then I remember to pray, and God shows me that He's always with me. (:

    love always,
    ~Lily

    ps--Uh, that wouldn't be Justin Bieber, now would it? *laughs*

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  2. Wow, wow, wow! So inspiring!

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  3. Such a great reminder for me. It's like I know it, but it's so easy to forget when this world becomes too much. It's so easy for me to take my eyes off Jesus and become focused on everything else. But you are so right, and thanks for the reminder. Love ya girly

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  4. This is a long shot, but is that song by Johnny Cash? It sounds like one of his...but I don't know what's it called. LOL

    Great post, Emii! :)

    Katie

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  5. Emii, God says you are worth it! He loves you so much!

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  6. Hey,
    sooo inspiring. I know exactly what you mean... exactly what it feels like. :] to feel sad, lonely, unwanted, stupid, idiotic, useless, unloved, all those and more. Really, though, God is all we need, and that's a priority I think we all have to get straight once (or twice, or ten, or... heh heh) in life.
    God is all we need... I mean, from a tried and true situation, boys, friends, money, and stuff won't make you feel any more loved, wanted, or happy. God is the only one who can feel that void within us, you know?
    :] Heh heh, sorry for this long comment. This is the best post you've done so far, I think! Keep it up!

    -Amanda

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  7. Faith seems so hard.Yet it's supposed to be easy once you get(I'm still getting there).That was from baby right?Love it!Um...back to where I was, at our Church instead of VBS we do a local mission trip and we rent a school building
    (christian Private..I think it's private anyway). So we landscaped last year.it was sooo hot!And by landscaping they meant pulling up a ton of weeds,getting super hot and two kids getting stung by these huge scary bees.but it was still fun and they gave us breaks.I drank like 3 Gatorade :)
    I am rambling now so by-by!Sierra

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